Friday, January 01, 2010
{ 11:12 PM }
My blog is already 4 years and 4 months old! Time really flies. I am a little afraid of what 2010 will bring. I am not good at adapting and i need a longer time to adapt to the surrounding. Hope that I wont have a mental breakdown because of the stress. But, I wanna make it to a good JC. Please, let my O level results be fairly good.
Sometimes, I am envious with others. They have the brains, looks, true friends and supportive parents. I don't think that I have the brains so I have to work harder than other people to achieve the same results. Sometimes, my results are not as good. I am not blaming my parents and I know that I am luckier than many others because I have the basic necessities in life but humans tend to compare right? I really hope that my parents can be more encouraging and stop all the quarrelling. I do not know what to do about this and I will often remain indifferent because I really do not know what I can do to salvage the problem. I think i should really learn how to appreciate all the things and people around me and stop taking them from granted.
I really have to learn to be more independent and not so easily influenced by others. And, most importantly, i should not really care so much about what opinions others have about me. The start of this year is a bad one. Sick on the first day of 2010. =(
We will all be leading different lives in different schools this year. Frankly speaking, I do not like a change in environment. Hope that I can get into the same school as some of my friends. Are results everything? To me, it really is. I will be devastated if my results are horrendous. I dont think that I am suited for poly life. But,if the results did not turn out to be so good, I only have myself to blame.
Working hard in a new school will be my way of compensating. I will not procrastinate. This is quite difficult but it shall be be new year resolution. I MUST do the best that I can. LOL. This sound like a school motto. I am also going to stop being so impulsive.
Hope than 2010 will be a great year for me!